31st of saturday

The last day of the whole month ...
A "Bang" and i cant do anything ...
he came settle one of the ones ~~
as expexted he was so care and so strong ..
i am weak ... cos i can do anythings ... other than c ...
can't comfort anyone ... can't care anyone ... can't do anythings ... and can't even help
31 mayb is the last day of the month ... or a day that tells u tomorrow is new starting ??
i wish is telling me opening of new starting ~~
i don wan everythings remain ... altought somethings gonna remain ..
bt nt everythings ... i wan changes ... somethings change change change ~~
can ma ??
can change ma ??
i don wan lik tat liao le ... i don wan to tink all SHIT in my brain le ..
i wan tell ppl le ...
who wan hear ??
who can hear ??
who will hear ??
who ??
tell me who ??
can i dont tink so much ma ??
can my brain onli tink to improve ??
can i put away useless things in my brain ??
can i put somethings usefull in my brain ??
can i help some1 ??
can i don ned to be help ??
when ??
when can i be avant garde ??
when i can protect ppl ??
when i can don wan sit far far ??
when i can don wan to draw a line throught ??
when my old attitude will go away ??
when i can cut away the line ??
when i can i break the invisible wall in between ??
when onli i can joke ??
when i can b funny ??
when ?? can tell me when ??
where can i go now ??
where else i can go ??
where is the way i can go ??
how ??
how i wana helps ??
how things will come bak ??
how to tell ppl everythings gonna b fine ??
how to comfort ??
how to care ??
how to do ??
how to become better ??
how come all this come to my brain ??
how come i wan draw a line ??
how come i cant cut the line ??
how come i cant change my this stupid attitude ??
i don wan ... i don wan ... i don wan ...
i don wan tis attitude ...
i don draw a line between we all ...
i cut the line with my best ..
to chase back u all ...
i said ... i will ...
as i said ... i will ~~

unknown 。known 。more

unknowns ... too much things tat were unknowns ...
wana know more ... bt in real life we gota wait ...
wait till the wall been broken then the way to open the window ...
altought it been punch and one hole is in it ... bt still need to dig ~~
it use a long time no dig ... but time isnt the matter ...
bcos things come too easy will go very easy ~~
so treat it different ...
life is different ...
different than wat i hav tought as normal olden days
cos my thinking still short ~~
tink b4 talk bt when wana talk scared spoil the enoviroment
dono choose which 1 to talk ...
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Losted is a stupid reason to ownself ...
cos no 1 going 2 babyfeed u ...
u edi 1 ... choose ur way to go ...
and go freely~~

O.o ... haha ... happy ma ??? happy ...

happy ma ?? sure happy la ...
y ?? cos everytings is going bak le ...
i will change myself harder n harder ...
cos i kno ... i realli found friends tat realli treat me will real heart ...
i will more jy jy de ...
exploration wekk come le ...
bt it seem lik normal skool days .. cannot sleep do HW ..
still gt time blogging ?? lol ... cos i still no ideal ma ...
still don wan tink ?? lol .... blog finish 1st la ...
being help is veri happy bt helping is happier than being help ...
tis is wat i hav learned ... lol .. thx my besties ...
long time no talk ... cos i dono wat wrong words will come out again ...
lol ... bt cant choose to b silence cos ...
as ah wei said ... silence is nt the way to solve problem ...
as yee sum said ... don look at the passed wrong ... solving problem is the way to walk to the future ...
as yong cheng said ... 1000 wrong sorry is useless than 1 sorry tat were realli come out from the heart ...
as chee han said ... lost is good cos u now is the time to choose the right way to walk ..
as ah sheng said ... being less bai mu n useless words come out from the mouth can help u alot to repair the relationship between all ...
as jing said ... altought he kno everthings ... bt secrect is still secrect ...
i kno all ... i will keep all the words in my heart cos ...
i will nvr learn if u all didnt realli treat me as one of u alls ....
thx thx ~~
i kno wat i should do ... cos i don wan wasted all u all's helps ...

久。。。

很久没有update我的blog乐。。。

我不知道我是否变了。。。

变得怎么了。。。

不知道。。

慢慢的那白目的我应该死了吧。。。

我想我帮到就帮。。。

但是很多东西我也是帮不上忙得。。。

越帮越忙。。。

变得不懂怎样开玩笑了。。。

因为太久没说话了。。。

慢慢的以前的我也消失了。。。

因该开心吗？？

为什么没有想象中的开心呢？？

奇怪。。。 很奇怪。。。

我也有开心的。。。 因为。。

不说了。。。

又是想太多了吧。。。

处女男的坏处吧。。。

在读书馆里。。。

我没误会他。。。

因为我知道他是真的再帮我的。。。

我不会让他的帮忙白费的。。。

因为他是我的好友哦。。。

这是上天安排的。。。我会遇见他。。。

我是真得很感谢他。。。

还有每一个帮我的人。。。

我不会在笨笨的在浪费你们的帮忙。。。

机会是要自己把握的。。。

不要人家给。。。

就算人家给了。。。 也要懂得好好珍惜啊。。。

我慢慢的开始懂得这道理了。。。

谢谢。。。

双子与天蝎。。。你们帮了我很大的忙。。。

谢了。。。

me ?

i guess tat i tried to change bt i didnt change at all .. cos i too stupid ... sry friend .. mayb u all are starting to giving up on me ... i realli fail u all ... lol ... i ... i... i ... i damn stupid,bai mu , ke po , alot more .. i hurt all ... i hurt juz all my frined ... if i didnt exsist in tis world ... mayb u all will b more happy right ??
i tink the answer is deninetly 100%ly yes ... yes ~~ yes!! i useless juz ask i been call in my secondary skool ... brain dono put where ...or i actulli born without it ~~ i hate myslef from today cos i hate it ... i alwalys didnt use my so call pig barin to tink ppl de feeling ... ingnore me ... cos i sux ... i hate being myself ... change ... change ... change ... change ... change ... change ... change ... change ... change ... if there were knives on thier hands .. i tink they juz will stab me ... throught my useless brain ~~ i wont giv up ~~ i will change i will bring my brain bak ~~ i don care cos i gt my aim ~~

Bak again ~~

Haha should i laugh ?? lol .. today we went kenny rodger with yong cheng , ah seheng n jing ... lol .. long time no take picture jor lo ~~ ah wei ned go home ... then xin gota pei ah wei cos all ascred ah wei pengsan ... siao wei sleep n rest more ... lol ....
i love figure n i hate figure ... lol ... 8hrs 2 complete abt 1 n 70% if my figure ... lol .. draw slow slow ... ppl teaching ... lol ... i at library sleep 1 hrs le ... dono gt sound anot le ... haha ...

bak form the unfinish me ~~

Suddenly feel lik blogging when my figure was doing in the half way ..
eh i feel my life now lik puzzle ... alot of part .. and all the part was found bt my friend n the put it together ... i wish if can been fully insert by the time i ned it ... tik sheng, ah wei, yong cheng, yee sum, chee han, xin xin, jing all have 1 part of me ... then they trying to fix me all together ... i lik tis feel ... bt gain from alot advise n scolding ... bt among all .. i ned a piece puzzle tat complete my whole puzzle protrait ...
who took it ?? haha ... who knows ?? i ned it by the time all the puzzle tat hav been taken is fixed ...then the last piece will b insert .. the last piece of my puzzle is called brave ... i ned it .. so now intelligance, observation, skills, neatness, colours and mature ned too be insert b4 the brave puts in ... now is nt the time to put the brave ... cos the puzzle of my protrait still hav alot of holes ... i try to let them fix now ... realli ... they help to put all in place ... bt i am the one to combine it ~~
In life there were happy n unhappy .. ppl hav been protecting me from the pass ... so i hate to b protect n i choose to protect ppl ... bt i used the wrong way ...
i wasted time on sem 1 .. so sem 2 i ned to chase all bak .. so i can bak 2 my gang ... i now is the last of the worst ... i admit ... so i wana change ...i wan bcome average as in the gangs ... altought they didnt tell me tat i m worstin my art work .. bt i kno it ... cos i oso hate wat i hav done sumtimes la ... so i ned more attention ... more hardworking ... more more more n more ...
I now hanging half half ... so i dono wat is call half half la ... so i ned clime my stairs ... happy ?? n i ned to bcome bak my joker position n the art of average ... jia you ba ~~ gambatah ~~ add oil ~~ ...